Watch your love

Ended up in an upset quarrel with her bf. but however i saw a msg in her tag board frm her bf, saying that he is sorry n he still loves her. Hmm personally upon seeing this msg, i felt alot.. knowing that both of them will not last long but the guy still insist of hanging in there. She's giving up, thats wad i can feel, but however thats definitely not the end. Towards each r/s if a person ever gave in feelings for each other, its a sure thing both of them will leave a deep impression of each other even after break up. (Unfortunately that doesnt work on me.)

Feelings are very special. Its makes a person ignore wadever shit and become very ignorant towards their surrounding. For example, i like this girl, in return this girl likes me too, eventhough we knew each other less den 1mth but "feelings" just brings us together FIRST, w/o even knowing much other each another we became couples. So how long will this last? Have we ever thought of hw well can we go along? And how long can this "go-along" last? Giving in time n again makes feelings blend, finding out more n more abt the other party makes u even headache.

So how do we find a true love? I personally dun think there's a true love. Its juz how well u are willing to giv in and take from him, and vice versa. No matter how big or serious is a quarrel, think after each quarrel whose right n whose wrong. Forgive and Forget. If you insist ur way, you're being demanding.. unreasonable, wad if the other party does the same? Who win? The answer is both LOSE. Chances u said u gave him/her again again and again. Why do u hav to give him/her chances if u love him? U have to accept him as a whole even with his flaws, nobody is perfect, not me, not u, and not him. U hav ur flaws, but some pple like u because of ur imperfection. And thats y i said if u know a partner that is less den a month, how well can u know him??
-He can bring u smile all the time, how long can he do that?
-He can listen to ur woes all the time, how long can he do that?
-He can say he promise u this n that, how well do u understand him to trust that he will do that?
-You feel he is the one, time will prove it to u.
-You feel that he loves u, time will prove it to u when he got a new gf.

So y is it all stories? We all learn as we grow.. learn to understand wad is right n wrong. How to see n judge a person. I'm not a good lover, i could merely make it for my love life. But as these yrs past by i understand love is the someone in ur life that will be able to take care of u, care for u whole heartedly, even at the darkest n toughest times he/she will nv leave u and most imptly able to grow old with u feed u when u r sick, talk to u when u're bored. He/she do not have to make u smile all the time, do not need to give promises, but u know definitely when u need him, he is always by ur side. So dont b a spoilt kid anymore, dun throw ur tantrums any O how. Learn to understand n talk to each other more..

dedicated to Little Miss G.

Little Miss. G

i feel very sad and sorry after receiving the 2 sms last night.
deep down inside it felt really terrible.. i wondered, y shud i do this.
but i jus cant bring up another teaspoon of courage to reply her anymore.
i cant even explain y am i doing this.. prolly..
1. she changed after she had her bf..
2. its better to stay a distance away from her.. is good for her n her bf. jealousy. =/
3. i no longer feel i can talk to her abt my stuff anymore..
4. i dont want some feelings to wavered again.. anyway its just wad we call "an lian".
5. my luck of love hasnt been rewarding for all these yrs.

and so..
its better for me to dodge. everything, anything.

i hope everything will be fine for her.. i mean everything. afterall she's the one and only girl i care that much. i really felt terrible after i decided not to reply her. but wad to do.. juz forget me as a fren that wud be much better i guess. call it emotional or wadever fuck.. but i hav no confidence in myself after all these yrs. no looks, no $, no gd qualifications.. practically nth gd.

im just a rough guy.. and now nobody likes rough guys. girls like brainy guys, talkative guys, interesting guys, creative guys, those that will brighten up their day, keep em occupied, make them smile all day long.

Little Miss G is a very special girl to me, prolly the only girl with all emotions. joyful, full of crap, sporty, cries easily.. sentimental n00by. But unfortunately, she's more interested in a guy who she knew less den 1mth. Maybe my method doesnt work in this era anymore. So be it.

To Little Ms G. though u might not see this. But i do hope for ur well-being and rmb to be strong at all times. I might juz be a by-passer in ur life real soon. I miss u.. and im sorry.