Fate is written on our hands

Spending 1/4 of my sunday with her. Knowing somehow its her results tat are bothering her, but i couldnt find words to comfort her. Well interestingly, i was rather shocked when she popped a qns to me, tat was "What do you want to be in your future?".

It was an immediate effect, my eyeballs rolled to the side of the transparent glass panel and stared into the opposite blk blankly. Brain was storming how big i could make it in my lifetime, wad had i achieved so far in my studies, wad kind of jobs am i gonna take on in the future? All sorts of qns roamed out frm nowhere regarding my future, splashing in at such great speed. Den i tot, after hearing her plans for her future, i feel like im a total loser. I cant talk to her abt sch cause i dun hav good results myself to advice her, i cant seem to fit into the chat coz practically i dun hav a sch to study in currently as well. We are from different world, she had many many routes drawn for her future, expectations, dreams and believes. But i had none, walking my way aimlessly, no clear future, no big fortune will be expected.

Like many other males, they'll try to impress the opposite sex with their looks, wealth or knowledge. These 3 main criteria are the most impt for the girls nowadays when they are lookin for a suitable partner. But in my case, none of them suits into my state of category. And for smart girls like her, being her fren, i feel like an outcast, looked down, probably graded lowest in the frendship list.

Serious ruminations had been done, but i dont think for the time being i can find anything tat interest me the most. Im not keen in doing IT, nor Engineering. But i do hav an affection for sports, however its nt within my control to be able to study tat. Im been chasing those level of paper qualifications, without knowing wad i am studying. But i do see pple making out big with jus a O level cert, in a sense like Jasper said, they've no safety net.

And thats y i say girls with many expectations and me, are from 2 different world. I believe if love existed, none of these matters. But considering who wont want a comfortable life, money still make things wonder. And I, a normal rough person, might nv get to taste the fortune rolling all over the place. I wud just wan simple, memorable lifetime. Coz who knows when we'll die? Chiong so much but miss out the perks of life.

How big can i make it this lifetime? Will there be someone who will not be afraid of having a not-so-rich life and making ends meet, walking hand in hand till times get better & better and till the end of time? Sound like only fairy tale, but i do believe in myself. Thou i dont belong to those brainy group, but i believe im still here for something im worth for.

If im fated to be rich(making it big), I believe I will be up there in no time. But if i'm not, I've got nth to lose so far.

And its worth waiting for,

coz i'm gZ-

The one of only gZ-

JUST BELIEVE