对不起 旺旺, 我失去了才懂得珍惜. 路上好走.

Since sec3, this rabbit has been with me for approx 7 yrs. Lookin at me when i was having fun, quarreling with my parents, start of poly, graduate from poly, leaving for NS.

He'd never fall sick thru out this few yrs of stay outside my corridor. From a small round fur ball, it grew up to become a real adult rabbit. I could still rmb him standing on his hind legs watching us when we came home back in the earlier years. Running ard the small area like a lost sheep when my dad comes home from work. And for a non-meat eater like him, he was still considered a likable pet when pple drop by our house and take a look or play with him.

It has been many yrs tat i could last rmb the last time i seriously took care of him, till recently, my dad told me ah wang was sick, tat he has dragging his hind legs when he move. Tat moment i saw was painful, like something pierced thru my heart, watching him not eating and dragging his hind legs was extremely painful. Knowing my pet was ill for the 1st time, i couldnt do anything. Until my dad took him to a vet, they diagnosed him with some stomach-wasn't-feeling-well problem and brought some medicine back for him then i started to panic and realise this might be the last few moments with him.

As a rabbit lifespan is only abt 6-8yrs. I was pretty fortunate to had him with us for 7yrs. For so much he'd been thru with us, from a small fur ball where i can hold him with 1 hand to a big fat rabbit tat couldnt even be bothered to move at times, he has alrdy been one of us and emotionally attached to our family.

Wang Wang had been a really good boy, naughty rabbit, and till today, 150310, his time was up. He left us with only good memories that he has build throughout this 7years, the actions, the laziness, and the naughty times when he jumped out of the fence to lie ard along the corridor. He left peacefully.

I felt sry for him, tat i didnt do anything much for him these few yrs. A regret tat i could never ever explain to him, that i only hope he can understand. I could only feel he's still like a baby when i fed him with food these couple of weeks, knowing he was weak, at least i didnt made him leave with an empty stomach and at least i fed him for the last time, watching him looking at me. I felt a guilt. I felt so miserable.

I'll never forget this part of my life tat I had him with us, for the 7 years, he shared our fun and tough times. He was the 1st and only pet i had tat lived with us for so long, guarding our home and silently watching over us. I thank him for being my and our companion, u will always be remembered.

Consider me lucky, or was it fate tat planned tis. Since last wk when i came home, for the entire I took off and he fell sick. Was it a hint for me to accompany my rabbit for his last phase?

I was extremely happy and glad tat i could spend this 2 wks of time tgt with my dear rabbit, it seemed like he has been waitin for this period of my stay at home, that he fall from the strong and active rabbit to a weak and tired one.

I held him in my arms and still feel he was a baby, watching him deteriorating day by day, but trying his best to stand and walk, react to us, even he was so exhausted. Move so we know he's still kicking alive, guess he must have wanted our attention for the very last time before he took his last breath.

And as he lie comfortably at the most corner of my corridor, tat was his final spot and his favourite place to pass on peacefully into the next stage of his life.

God, had you taken him away?

旺旺, I will miss you.

gZ-

Fate is written on our hands

Spending 1/4 of my sunday with her. Knowing somehow its her results tat are bothering her, but i couldnt find words to comfort her. Well interestingly, i was rather shocked when she popped a qns to me, tat was "What do you want to be in your future?".

It was an immediate effect, my eyeballs rolled to the side of the transparent glass panel and stared into the opposite blk blankly. Brain was storming how big i could make it in my lifetime, wad had i achieved so far in my studies, wad kind of jobs am i gonna take on in the future? All sorts of qns roamed out frm nowhere regarding my future, splashing in at such great speed. Den i tot, after hearing her plans for her future, i feel like im a total loser. I cant talk to her abt sch cause i dun hav good results myself to advice her, i cant seem to fit into the chat coz practically i dun hav a sch to study in currently as well. We are from different world, she had many many routes drawn for her future, expectations, dreams and believes. But i had none, walking my way aimlessly, no clear future, no big fortune will be expected.

Like many other males, they'll try to impress the opposite sex with their looks, wealth or knowledge. These 3 main criteria are the most impt for the girls nowadays when they are lookin for a suitable partner. But in my case, none of them suits into my state of category. And for smart girls like her, being her fren, i feel like an outcast, looked down, probably graded lowest in the frendship list.

Serious ruminations had been done, but i dont think for the time being i can find anything tat interest me the most. Im not keen in doing IT, nor Engineering. But i do hav an affection for sports, however its nt within my control to be able to study tat. Im been chasing those level of paper qualifications, without knowing wad i am studying. But i do see pple making out big with jus a O level cert, in a sense like Jasper said, they've no safety net.

And thats y i say girls with many expectations and me, are from 2 different world. I believe if love existed, none of these matters. But considering who wont want a comfortable life, money still make things wonder. And I, a normal rough person, might nv get to taste the fortune rolling all over the place. I wud just wan simple, memorable lifetime. Coz who knows when we'll die? Chiong so much but miss out the perks of life.

How big can i make it this lifetime? Will there be someone who will not be afraid of having a not-so-rich life and making ends meet, walking hand in hand till times get better & better and till the end of time? Sound like only fairy tale, but i do believe in myself. Thou i dont belong to those brainy group, but i believe im still here for something im worth for.

If im fated to be rich(making it big), I believe I will be up there in no time. But if i'm not, I've got nth to lose so far.

And its worth waiting for,

coz i'm gZ-

The one of only gZ-

JUST BELIEVE

1Mar10 - My sweetest dream.

This special morning i had a dream abt me and Her. Its abt something to do with love, couple, i guess? And thx to such thing tat existed called "dream", tat i can have this rare opportunity to spend this short amount of time but seemed long tgt with her. thou knowing its not realistic; tat however it satisfies the hope in me tat it'd been so long i prayed for such thing to happen.

Trying out some weird outfits tgt, eating some kind of reunion dinner tgt, sitting beside her adding ingredients to her plain bowl of rice, all these little actions make me feel contented. I would know such thing will be close to impossible to turn real in this realistic world. But its always good to have a dream, where only in this world, i can really be the king.

Most pple say dream n realistic world are the opposite, and i guess so too. So after waking up, i decided to write tis down so in yrs to come i can rmb, today, i came so close and felt so contented for at least once in my lifetime, in my dreams =)

And pray this small little happiness will continue in my small little dream world... I'll be glad.

Little Miss.G