Your cheerful smile, and your pretty face.

I juz wished i could selfishly owner them to myself. And it all just belong to me. just me. How i wish..

I don't want to be just an acquaintance.

Little Miss.G

We shud be a grown up by now.

i felt rather appreciated tat someone actually trust me tat much to allow me to access their mailbox to check their mails for them. Apparently, out of curiosity i went to click on her past tense, and i had a moment of sour and sad feeling came running across my body. To realise tat ur not a person tat someone will write abt in the entire life(till now), i felt bad. I knew what this person wanted as a gd lifetime partner, pretty choosy i wud say, and for me.. till now i still find her hard to communicate at many times.

failure, going thru so many times of it, but yet still cant understand how a true relationship works. i'm no longer a young chap wearing school uniform running ard. my time in teenage days were over, stepping into a new age of grown up, and learning how to think rationally is still a key to being a mature guy.

probably im not the cup of tea for this particular person, but at least i wud say my feeling as to treat tis fella well, is definitely genuine. There're so many girls out there, but y cant i find a suitable one for myself. and this qns has been revolving ard me for many many yrs. Seemed like there's alrdy 1, but in the blink of an eye, its gone. Repeating itself throughout this years. Hard to forget those moments of pain and disappointed, it devoured me. And bcoz of this cycle, we continue to grow.

Im almost 22. God. And still no results of a positive relationship. And no wonderful grades. Sometimes i really doubt i can make it big someday. I tried to bury myself into work in camp, at least it wont hurt when i turn ard and find myself walking home alone. I've got frens, but frens dun make a family for sure. I'd really wan to hav a real blossom in life tat i can be proud of, may it come by luck or hard work but I knew i've not done enuff for the latter.

If im really tat bad of a person, i dun mind suffering. But wad i see frm my surroundings, are useless assholes enjoying life. I dont wanna complain or whine here, but there's no one else out there tat i have the trust for me to share tis with. Question now, Who understands me?

For as long as i remember, nobody.

And eventually, We'll still grow. gZ-

Happy Chinese New Year everybody!

finally. 3days of cny is coming to an end. Got some great stuff for this cny, specially for myself lol.

- 3 jeans

- 1 wallet

- 1 belt

- 1 top

- 2 shoes

total : $917

practically spent all my allowance. LOL. AND there's 1 very interesting qns tat i encountered during this festive.

Aunt: "When are u bringing ur gf over to show her to me?"

Me: "Er.. not so soon, wo mei you tao hua yun ah!"

Hmm kinda like wondering where have the girls in this world gone to? So many good girls out there, but as for now, none is fated to be in my social circle. pretty sad for a start of the cny, but none the less tis wont affect me =/

png finally owned his own "Home" grats to Png and Ah Ting.

yes, back in camp. I'm the CQ once again! yay! This potm arrow really damn zhun keep hit me one lor. Wads more, my dear BK is going to taiwan and giving me his appointment as well! LOL, so is tat wad a best commander gets? Extra appointment, extra work, no extra pay. =/

I'll take tis as a experience den, trying my best to settle the work b4 the audit and this might not b a bad learning experience as a logistic personnel for my future, it might even come in handy! LOL.

and my dear fren vin, hope with the new start of the cny, everything starts afresh for u too. stop thinking pessimistic and at least you still have a fren like me to hope for ur well-being! So take good care of urself and study hard k! U might nt see this for sure but let tis be a wish from me to u to be well and everything goes shun shun li li!!

Little Miss. G. stay cute and healthy rmb to eat more and healthily.

Pro frens of gZ- those who know me and i know u, good luck in everything u all do for the yr ahead! Best wishes!

gZ- as for me, lets ORD in the months to come and hope i can find myself a good sch to study in asap. And oso to meet my fated one REAL SOON! LOL im not young alrdy laa! Oh noooo... haha.

Mum and Dad, thou i dont express myself. But u all know i love you 2 for sure. So good health for the both of u, and may blessings fall into our house to keep our family happy, cheerful and healthy! And thats the best fortune i will wish for.