It all became a 69

Yep tats right, it all became a 69 instead of a 99 as planned. But well nvm its ok im still glad that i had her in my life.

Had a simple evening with her and this feeling isnt something that can be explained with words. Happiness and joy filled my entire heart as we strolled down the beach of ECP, though we didnt walk far but it was an unforgettable moment with her. The way she held my hands engraved a mark in my heart so sweetly done that i knew nth better could replace this.

And I can only wish this love will last as long as it can, hopefully endless. Becoz this special bond is not easy to tie, especially for a guy like me.

Now the tricky part is to settle my parents, hope they can understand me. I know they will.

P.S ich liebe dich Summer.

Words of gZ-
And our love will sail on, against the wave and challenge the storm, all for a better tomorrow. =)

the spark of hope.

Emotion is a very special feeling. now that i've found myself plunged into a hole called 'love', so deep, and endless. I met this gal, so special....... whom leads a princess life, so lovely, and yet so fragile. I felt something special about her, something warm. This warmth made me fall in love with her, and her fragile frames make me want to take care of her even more.

Though im afraid that our financial differences will be the major obstructing factor that might cause hinderance in our relationship. But i couldnt be more selfish for now to have her by my side first, b4 all these thots come into reality. Though this is reality, but i'll still hold on to this simple hope for a new beginning in a r/s that can blossom into a garden of fruits.

She's so dear to me, i couldnt say more but i want her to b part of my life. Not sure whether she wants to or not, but nonetheless im all out to give it a shot! Many have said i've always been a stupid guy who always gave what my gf wants, but i think this is not stupid but instead it's my style of dote and love that i express to my special partner. Hopefully this way of showing love can work things out and rebuild my long lost confidence once again.

9911 will be the day i will ask her for the officials, not sure whether is she ready or will she accept but, even if i failed...... at least i tried. =)

But after this will come a new challenge from my family, to accept her as my gf. Not gonna plan too far ahead, as i prefer the best plan is to have no plans.
Though seriously many have said negative remarks about chinese nationals, and i do agree to some extend, but i seriously have no idea on whats deep inside her mind is she stilling hiding anythings from me or whether does she have any ulterior motives. But fk it man, im not gonna care anymore!! I just wan to fall in love again and have a taste of love.

I will persist that feelings are way more valuable then what money can buy. Thats y i will appreciate this chance and cherish her, even if she might be taking advantage of me with her whatever ulterior motive it may be, I wont care anymore. Cause papa is in LOVE!!!! woohoo!

To my dear girl if u ever read this, please dont jump up and start swearing at me or feel angry or disappoinment. The ulterior motive i've mentioned is purely based on my relatives experience and surrounding happenings. As i've told u b4 there're too many such cases happening ard us, or at least to my family, and that is y i have this mentality. Please forgive me for doubting u. It really wasnt intentional, its just that some impressions are hard to filter out so easily. Hope u can understand. And if u ever get to read this, these 3 words are from my heart and just for u 我爱你.



gZ- will enjoy while love is in the air!~
If possible, let this love last forever.
And ever.

Learned something new.

"Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, Nor hell a fury like a woman scorned"

a good friend of mine told me this and hope that i can truely understand its meaning. =)

10 years ago...

s0me memories just came flowing back into my mind. remember 10 years ago, i was in sec 1, studying in 1D. Was said to be the lousiest of all the express classes... but at that time, i was too young and cant be bother with academics. Got to know one of my favourite teacher, 2 yrs of form teacher, Mr Chan Boon Hoe. He looks stern from the first sight, but sooner as we know him better, he was a fun peron to play ard with. I still remembered he whack me on my back, thanks to the 'jian bao'. But after that dunno during which year, he left to teach other schools.


He was also the teacher in charge for bball, which tat cca i was seriously hoped to enter. It was known to be a cool sport back then, and also partially due to the urge to join a bball team since primary school. And it was during this period i started to play basic bball and with proper trainings.


It was a big regret during my last yr of secondary school days that i gave up my slot for my fellow teammates. I think i was considered pretty outstanding in terms of skill at that time, but im just too stubborn that i skipped trainings. None the less it was great to play for them for 2yrs, and i've learnt quite a fair bit.


my secondary days, other than bball and a little bit of study, nothing else has been a boomer for me. no girlfren, no good grades and i think quite a few teachers hated me. nothing special, just another attitude kid that is not interested in studies. but luckily i managed to get thru those terrible days of lousy science teacher and gone-crazy maths teacher.


i could still remember vividly, that everytime i walk past the corridors where the bball court could be seen, it was always muddy, and dirty. few pple played and the rest are from the sch team. seriously, it was a fun time back in the secondary sch days. nth beats playing ball after school, and looking at other cute volleyball babes. secondary studies were pretty much carefree, just that i didnt took that opportunity to experience puppy love a few more times.

Young is the word i dont tink i can see that in myself anymore. Some good memories from 10 years ago had reminded me not to waste my youth any further. from a center pathing, to botak, then to spiky. whoa....those are really the days i hope i wont forget.

and as i continue to live this age, i shall be ready to accept the nxt multiple 10years i will be writing here. the nxt stage of life, working and setting up a family. and i hope for the nxt 10 yrs it will be a experience of life that i will never forget, just like my secondary school day, 10 years ago in 2001.



And as im listening to Linkin park's - Iridescent

Let it go~ Let it go~ Let it go~~~~~~~~~~~~~

gZ- will continue to roll as the future unfolds.

To be...

I hope and want to be successful in my love and life. For at least, people can't look down on me.

Happy Birthday gZ-

Happy Birthday gZ!

Nothing special this year.
Again I wish that my parents will stay safe and healthy forever.

For daddy, be safe while driving around the country earning money to support my studies.
For mummy, to stay cheerful and active while turning back into a housewife role.
For me, to successfully complete my degree and find a good job to lessen the work load for daddy n mummy. And also not forgetting to hope that a cupid to struck again after.....3yrs?

To my frens, those who are still studying, good grades to ur results. To those who are working, strive hard and get promoted. Work hard and also work safely!



That is the how gZ- roll.

Cupid never strucked.

Why o why, why hasn't cupid struck me. Sometimes i feel so jealous while looking at my frens and all having a special partner to lean on and spending time off with each other.

Upset, distorted and terrible.

gZ- wonders if there is a chance... will cupid ever struck on him.
And we shall see...

Earth's punishing.... us

11th March 2011.

Japan, Sentai, received a "not the first" warning call from Earth, an 8.9 earthquake and a crushing Tsunami that followed right behind it.

Similarly, recall few months ago from this date, Australia received a warning as well, a bad flood in many of the states mainly Brisbane.

And all of a sudden this qns came to my mind, is that the fastest way Earth deals with the fever she's getting from the global warming now?
If it is, then so far it must be the fastest and the most effective way to recovery.

We humans, the homosapiens, suppose to be the bright and intelligent ones after the dinosaurs. And yes i can say u're proving this right till now, BUT this intelligence that was given to us was used in a wrong way, so wrong that its harming our mother, that gave birth to all of US.

U see, we often say filial piety is important, and no we did not show it Earth. I bet she had tolerated centuries after centuries, hoping to see human change. And yes we did, but for the worse. And now she's angry and teaching us a lesson, and y are the news station reporting "innocent" people dying, when all of us are the culprit? This pple died are suppose to be warning sacrifications which are merely minority of the world's population.

I do feel sympathetic for the people who lost their lives in this ordeal, but if this warning could save the future generations from seeing a underwater Earth, it might be worth it.

How people think abt y Earth could burn down the trees, summon the water? Yea we all know there are SCIENTIFIC reasons, but are there really? We never learnt, we ought to be taught thru the hard way.

WE, including myself, enjoy LIFE too comfortably, that we never appreciate wad is around us. I even had frens saying " if tmr there is no electricity, tmr den say lor!" And some worse, i donno are they too tired of living or wad, they love to use this acronym "FML". Seriously those pple who keeps cursing abt their life shud really swap their life with a rat or cockroach or something. Is life too wonderful that they need to curse wad luxury they're in? Those brainless losers..... sighs.

And honestly speaking, i wont be surprise if few months down the road or even the very next min there were to be an earthquake. I'm alrdy prepare to go thru a tough ordeal, or call it punishment. Just tat i hope i wont die so soon, mainly bcoz i haven met my lifetime partner and form a family yet.

Lastly, i hope Humans wont face extinction bcoz of their intelligence(like wad a joke right? "Humans extinct because they are too clever"), unlike the frikin dinosaur age, they became extincted bcoz of their boreness and their habit of not using their brains(do they even have 1?). But if I were to choose, i'll still prefer US to learn it the hard way, thats when we know is the country's economic more impt or the Earth's health - our extinction in crisis.

And leaders of the world, do something.... Instead of just taking those payslips and saving them up for ur future bloody generations.


I hoped i could be much help, if i had greater power and strengths. But............... *i know it'll all be excuses*




And that is how gZ- feels for Mother Earth.
I'm truely sorry, as a Homosapien, and as a Human.
I've let you down.

Last of Slam Dunk, Sakuragi Hanamichi

Save the Earth. (Spend some of your time to watch this if anyone were to see tis post)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jqxENMKaeCU

I dunno how to post this video up so made a hyperlink for simply reference.

I spent some time off watching this 1.5hr movie, regarding Earth and the homo-sapiens. Shows how Earth evolved with time, from billion of yrs ago, extinction of many organisms and species before WE humans lived our era. How all living matter linked up and correlates with each other b4 WE became smarter and start digging down into Earth's core.

Greenhouse effects and Global warming threathens our existence with the rapid increase of modernization. Showing us 20% of Earth's population using up 80% of Earth's resource, depleting her and making her sick.

Cant we juz observe from the very recent few diasters which happened all around the world? Not juz the melting of the 2 poles, but also the warning signals sent from Earth's core to destroy many living spaces. E.g Tsunami, Floods, Hurricanes... its happening everywhere, we can see it from the news EVERYDAY.

Are we humans going to face extinction just like how the dinosaurs did 230millions yrs ago? But unfortunately they wont clever enuff back that time... how come Humans being intelligent with so many scientists and researches going on, still deteriorate the condition every year? Is it bcoz of human's selfishness? To earn more... to live more comfortably?

Everyone including myself had been living so comfortably tat we nv realise the big motherland of ours is cryin for help. Everyone is obsessed with standard of living, comfort, wealth, fame, tat only few cared & did something to help.

I feel rather sad because of my insignificant powerless soul, i couldnt do much to help even if i wanted to. I really hope reputable men of countries, with wealth, power and influence, to step up n control CO2 production & pollution. None the less not forgeting to do my own part in helping out as well.

IF i ever get a next life as a human again, I wont want to face extinction at the moment of my first breath. Seriously I wont mind having a much harder & tougher life, but i would really wish to see a healthy Earth and not a Earth tat is blue, in the time to come.

Hope Mother Earth recovers much before our time runs out.

And with all tat i can hope for, gZ- will appreciate wad he's given for now & the future.

Awakening of the TrailBlazer

Just watch the above mentioned movie. Waited for almost 1/2 a yr for that movie and finally. Not disappointing and still as heart warming. Setsuna is always so so cool as ever, together with his Marina Ismail & flower, Celestial Beings and his new 00 Quantam, Haruto, Zabanya & Raphael. Totally rocks!!!!!!

The above pictures are from the final epilogue of the movie. 1st pic noticed the guy behind looks like Tieria. Next few pics are basically showing Setsuna came back from the other world and reunion with Marina Ismail, whom had aged tremendously. Though Setsuna still looks young but in a different context. Time had made them missed out with each other's life but their feelings never parted deep inside their heart and they still misses each other.

And finally that last picture should show the end of the 00 series, where human finally achieved peace thru understand, and Celestial Beings rolled a big part in this war to achieve this.


Gundam 00's memory stays forever.

And tats how gZ- roll.